The Choice

I almost burn my apartment down last night. And that was not the first time it happened. It spooked me to the point I can't sleep in fear the pan (with the keropok lekor still in it - that I tried to boil) will explode in the middle of the night and I will die in a fire, that I caused, myself.

Woke up this morning and looked at the mess my room was.
What am I doing with myself?

I have a great the-sky-the-limit job, a fantastic soulmate, loving parents, pretty face (overweight body ehem), clear conscience and yet here I am - in a place full of cluttered stuff , hungry kitties (5 of them), and no duvet. I need to sort my life. I need to get my act in order.

I need to un-frenzy myself.

I need to be ME.
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